Rehab

Maybe this chapter is over for me. Somehow in my heart i sincerely wish you will come back to me. Although its impossible.. but i know i need to move on.. i feel that i dont deserve to be your boyfriend after all the neglect in this past few months... maybe im not the right one for you.. im really sorry for causing so much emotional hurt for you and at least now im not afraid to type out what i feel in my own blog now.. all thanks to you..this angel who i failed to cherish... who i failed to open up to even you are my girlfriend because of my own doubts and negative personality.. but you nurtured me into a much better person.. who made me come true to myself and i want that to continue.. but i guess fate puts a full stop into our relationship. I know that a relationship needs a lot more commitment than what im doing currently. Should i ever go into a relationship again i will surely cherish the next moment and never ever neglect.. never let my inner demons take control of me again..such a painful lesson to be learnt :'(. When will i ever cherish a good relationship? you may get over me soon enough.. but i believe i will need a lot more time than this or perhaps lesser as opening up and closing my heart is equally difficult. It sucks but i have to do this. I dont want to feel like how i did last time. It is so miserable..much much worse than this. I hope it wont come and visit me again, and im really happy that i can cry. It is better than feeling so miserable that you cannot even shed a tear ,you can only laugh stupidly. I regretted. I hope i can overcome this silence.. and perhaps feel happy for you.. It is not that we dont understand each other, it is just me neglecting at some point of time,doubting myself and turns out to be the wrong guy for you.